I want to have the money to put a down payment on a house, and more than that, I want to make enough money that I can finally invest and get Barry his restaurant. The first in what I'm sure will be a long line of Feliciations restaurants, the concept of which is awesome, and has been planned for several years.
I guess that is what I truly want. Money. Or maybe I should say the freedom associated with money. Never having to deal with another boss on a power trip. Be able to travel. Be able to pay a babysitter so we can have a date once in a while. Finally be able to get married.
Beyond money, I want fame. I want to show the world that "Bipolar" is just a label that's been affixed because they didn't know how else to categorize our very special kind. I want a platform to push my ideas, and rally the troops. I want to be able to help people, the way Ellen and Oprah do. I want to improve the female condition in countries like Iraq through education of their women.
I want to do all the things I've always felt I was sent here to do.
As I sit here typing these words, it occurs to me. I want to be part of history. My whole life, I never wanted to be a statistic. So I don't want to leave this world just one of billions. I want to leave my mark, and to be remembered for the great things I did.
Is that totally vain?