The Bipolar Circuit has been tough on my emotions as well...
Since becoming a blogger, I've met several wonderful like minded beings, and have been in "close" contact with them either through our blogs or twitter (as close as one can be through the internet).
This week, three of these wonderful people talked about killing themselves.
- One has been admitted to hospital and is undergoing ECT (Electro Convulsive Disorder). I'm terrified for her. I don't know much about it and can't stop thinking about her and how she must be doing. There have been no communications since she was admitted.
- One disappeared off of Twitter 7 days ago after hinting that she was going to end it, and posted 2 days ago that she was going to kill herself. The post was soon removed and all that remains is an empty post and silence. A common twitter friend who knows her called the police, but he doesn't know enough to be kept in the loop. So I don't know if she's alive, if the police went to her house, if she's in the hospital or if she's just dead. The worry and not knowing is killing me. If you're reading sweetie, please don't hurt yourself, and please let me know you're breathing.
- And now one is waiting to find out if she has a fatal disease and is hoping she does, so that she can die without having to commit the act.
I've been there ladies. I know what you're going through. I'm worried about you. I think about you.
I care about you.
Read my first post on suicide, I hope it helps to ease your pain, or take your mind off your troubles.
Or at least see that you are not alone.
I'm praying for you,