Pin It Ah what a journey this thing called life is.
Sometimes I get discouraged because although I see my pageviews rising, I still get very little comments on my posts. Few people tweet or share my posts. The comments I do get are very encouraging, but sometimes they are so few and far between that I get discouraged.
Recently I saw a tweet or a pin or something that read something along the lines of "it's easy to forget that slow progress is still progress."
The words hit home with me, and I have been trying to keep my chin up by reminding myself of all of the (small) progress I have made since I suffered a total burnout almost 2 years ago now.
1. We recently painted my office, and as an exercise in visualization, I have decided to create a sign with Felicianation on it. I hope it serves to remind me of what I'm trying to achieve, and to help me keep focus. Pics of the completed office to come, it's still a work in progress!
2. I finally took the kids to the dentist, and it went great. I had a lot of anxiety about the visit because I was afraid the dentist would give me crap for waiting so long, and not being able to afford the co-pay for my insurance right now. I know it's dumb, but it's the honest truth. The thought of it gave me heart palpitations, but the seroquel seems to be helping with the anxiety and I was able to get over myself. I'm very happy to have this done, it was a source of great anguish for me, torn between doing the right thing for my kids and crippled by unrational fears.
3. I am also finally seeing a speech therapist with my youngest, but that isn't totally my fault as I requested the service at least one year ago. Way to go Quebec health care. He is also making slow progress, but his difficulties have been rated as moderate to severe, so this may take a while... but slow progress is progress and someday this will all just be a memory.
4. The blog is progressing slowly, partly my fault as I fail to be regular... but that's the story of my life I guess, I'm just not a regular person. I have been trying hard to be more focused lately, and it has been slowly paying off as I have had at least 5 new followers in recent weeks. Now to make that 5000.
5. I recently purchased a new car, so I no longer have to feel anxious about driving my old beat-up Sunfire anymore (though I loved her so.)
6. I'm being very good about taking my meds, and the Seroquel actually seems to be helping a little bit. My anxiety attacks have diminished.
7. I have cut back on Pepsi dramatically, going from 6-7 glasses a day to now just one and maybe even none. This has the added bonus of greatly reducing my caloric intake, not to mention all the sugar and carbs. The juice I've been drinking instead contains about half of all the bad stuff Pepsi does, and my psychiatrist would be overjoyed to know that I don't have a river of caffeine running through my veins anymore.
Sometimes it helps me to remind myself of the good stuff that's happening, as I tend to focus on the negative too much.